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Arise and Shine Pioneers Braving and Paving the Way for Survivors of RA/MC and Trafficking

Arise and Shine Pioneers Braving and Paving the Way for Survivors of RA/MC and Trafficking

By Sharri Burggraaf

Welcome to Arise and Shine Podcast: Pioneers Braving and Paving the Way for Survivors of RA/MC and Trafficking. Join Sharri Burggraaf, wife, mother, Nana, Survivor of RA/MC which included childhood sex trafficking where she shares how she is learning to thrive with dissociative identity response and get on the other side of the darkness she was born into. Debunking the myths of DID, the purpose of this podcast is to raise awareness of RA/MC and the link there is between ritual abuse and sex trafficking having multi-generational familial origins. The goal is to offer support, the love of Jesus,
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Navigating Relationships With DID

Arise and Shine Pioneers Braving and Paving the Way for Survivors of RA/MC and TraffickingMar 26, 2023

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Spiritual Walk With Jesus for Survivors of Ritual Abuse and Mind Control

Spiritual Walk With Jesus for Survivors of Ritual Abuse and Mind Control

Having a spiritual walk with Jesus for survivors of ritual abuse and mind control. Trauma survivors Samara Lucero and Sharri Burggraaf chat about challenges there are for survivors with spiritual healing, how the Christian walk is different than what the church may think is correct for them. What does walking with Jesus look like when having multiple identities in one body? Samara shares a bit about her journey from trauma based mind control and accepting Jesus at the age of 5 and how that got her through until the Holy Spirit could help her different identities navigate healing. It did not come without struggles and she wasn't always as close to God's heart as she is now. Samara and Sharri talk about the gaping wound of not knowing that God loves them; Samara shares dreams given to her by God that gave her a look at what she needed, lacked, and what God had for her life. Listen as she tells you the difference between recovery without Jesus and what a difference He has made in her life; going from victim to survivor to thriving and having joy in her life. This is one in the first of a possible series on the spiritual aspects of the satanic assault on children using ritual abuse and mind control as a way to try to get humans starting as young as prenatal to join in the satanic rebellion against God. Sharing about how not all paths go to heaven, these two survivors touch on the difference between Jesus who is the Way to other new age practices that still involve demons and hold no true healing. Hear how challenging it is to follow the normal steps that people take with Christianity and how God takes the parts of survivors with DID on an individual journey with Him that is filled with gentle, patient love.

May 02, 202401:10:56
Shattering The Silence: Empowering Male Survivors with Mike Chapman

Shattering The Silence: Empowering Male Survivors with Mike Chapman

April is sexual assault awareness month. In recognition of the often overlooked male survivors, we're joined by Mike Chapman, a certified Recovery Life Coach with over 25 years of experience in helping men navigate the aftermath of childhood sexual abuse , assault and trafficking. In this candid conversation, Mike shares his journey as a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and sex trafficking, as well as clergy assault as a young adult. We delve into the staggering statistics highlighting the prevalence of male sexual abuse, discussing its emotional after affects on survivors and society at large. Mike talks about the common challenges faced by male survivors, including stigma, misconceptions and difficulties in identifying that what happened was abuse and in seeking support. Mike's insights shed light on the unique experiences and needs of male survivors, emphasizing the importance of creating safe spaces for healing and connection. Mike talks about how sharing our story is a powerful way to heal and others can realize that it was not their fault and they are not alone. Remember, your voice matters, there is hope and support available. Join us in breaking the silence and empowering survivors to arise and shine after abuse. References are mentioned for male survivors of sexual abuse and assault. If you are a male survivor of childhood sexual abuse or assault Polar Life Consulting can help.


Apr 25, 202457:15
Unveiling the Violence of Being Silenced

Unveiling the Violence of Being Silenced

If you are a survivor of abuse you may have been silenced by your perpetrator. Join Sharri in this discussion about how being silenced by a perpetrator can be considered a form of violence causing great psychological and emotional harm although it is not legally categorized as a crime in the traditional sense. With a focus on physical, sexual, and overt abuse the profound impact of being silenced can become overlooked yet the impact is profound. Abusers employ tactics like manipulation, threats, and intimidation to intentionally keep victims silent, causing lasting and recurrent trauma. This perpetuates a destructive cycle, allowing the cycle of abuse to continue for future generations.  Suppressing a person’s voice is a violation of basic human rights and freedom. The terror that abusers instill denies and restricts freedom and is a tool that is used to maintain power and control that perpetuates oppression. As an advocate for myself and others one of my passions is to be a voice for the voiceless and speak up for those who can’t yet speak for themselves and encourage survivors to find and use their voice. As part of the solution we need to first recognize the significance of this powerful form of violence and the harm that is done to be able to create environments that promote empowerment and recovery.   Being silenced profoundly impacts a person's ability to make decisions for themselves and to have control over their own life. When your voice is suppressed, your thoughts dismissed, and your experiences invalidated it’s like being confined to a small, dark room where your perspective and feelings are not acknowledged, validated or respected. In abusive or toxic relationships or situations where silence is enforced, individuals lose the power to shape their own narrative. It's like having the pen taken away in the story of one’s life and their own unique experiences and perspectives are erased, resulting in a story that may not reflect the true essence of who they are.This dynamic robs them of the authority to define their own reality and make choices that align with their own needs, desires, and values. Survivors of abuse will want to hear this podcast to break the silence and go on to take back their power and their voice that was stolen from them.

Jan 09, 202422:11
Have a Self-Compassionate Christmas

Have a Self-Compassionate Christmas

"Have a Self-Compassionate Christmas," is the latest podcast dedicated to helping survivors navigate the challenges of the holiday season and find empowerment and joy. If you're looking for a supportive community and practical insights to make your holidays more bearable, you've come to the right place. In this unique podcast, Sharri Burggraaf delves into the diverse experiences of survivors dealing with trauma during the festive season. She explores the emotional impact of abuse, triggers, coping mechanisms, and the complex dynamics of family relationships. Join us as Sharri shares personal answers from a poll that survivors of abuse shared, their insights, and empowering strategies to help you not only survive but thrive during the holidays.

Podcast Highlights:

1. Real Talk on Holiday Struggles: Explore the varied experiences survivors face during the holidays, from navigating triggers to coping with memories. Gain insights from a poll where survivors candidly share their Christmas ratings and discuss the emotional challenges they encounter.

2. Coping Mechanisms and Setting Boundaries: Dive into the discussion on how past trauma can be triggered during the holidays. Discover empowering stories of survivors setting boundaries and practicing self-care to protect their emotional well-being.

3. Navigating Family Dynamics: Uncover the realities of survivors' relationships with their families of origin during Christmas. Gain valuable insights into contact, celebrations, and the importance of establishing boundaries for a healthier emotional state.

4. Finding Joy and Creating New Traditions: Explore survivors' enjoyment and challenges with Christmas activities. Learn about traditions from childhood and discover the creative ways survivors have started new traditions for themselves. Get tips on reducing stress and engaging in self-care during the festive season.

5. Connecting with Others and Acts of Kindness: Understand the significance of support and connections with fellow survivors. Hear heartwarming stories of volunteering and giving back to the community, along with survivor advice on establishing boundaries and finding joy.

6. Embracing Self-Compassion: Dive into the importance of self-compassion and empowering survivors to be kind to themselves. Hear coping mechanisms and strategies to navigate holiday stress, culminating in a heartfelt message acknowledging survivors' bravery and wishing for a peaceful and joy-filled holiday season.

Join us on "Have a Self-Compassionate Christmas" and be part of a community that understands, supports, and empowers survivors during the holidays. Your journey to healing and discovering joy begins here. Subscribe now for weekly episodes filled with insightful discussions, survivor stories, and practical tips. Let's make this holiday season a time of self-compassion, empowerment, and genuine happiness.

Dec 23, 202344:27
"Exploring Endogenic Dissociative Identity: Controversies and Clarifying Concepts"

"Exploring Endogenic Dissociative Identity: Controversies and Clarifying Concepts"

Join survivor Sharri Burggraaf in this podcast where she talks about the complexities surrounding the term "endogenic dissociative identity" and its impact on the DID and therapeutic community. This podcast critically examines the controversies stemming from the adoption of the term, particularly its origins in the Lunastus Collective, also known as the Plural system. The discussion unfolds, exploring the motivations behind the Plural system's introduction of alternative terms such as “traumagenic” to describe systems with trauma and "ecogenic" as neutral alternatives to describe systems without trauma.

The host delves into the unintended consequences of using non-standardized terminology, emphasizing the potential for confusion among professionals, challenges in accurate diagnosis and treatment, and the risk of divisions within the therapeutic community. The podcast raises ethical considerations, highlighting the importance of clear clinical grounding and adherence to established diagnostic frameworks. The absence of standardized definitions and the potential for misinformation are scrutinized, with an emphasis on the impact on clients' trust and credibility in the therapeutic community.

While acknowledging the Plural System's intentions to provide inclusive language, the podcast critically examines the adoption of endogenic terminology and its lack of recognition in the DSM-5. It discusses the potential harm to clients, the validation of non-evidence-based concepts, and the ethical considerations faced by therapists. The episode concludes by emphasizing the necessity of clear communication, transparency, and a commitment to evidence-based practices in the therapeutic community, particularly when addressing sensitive topics related to trauma and dissociative disorders.

Dec 21, 202325:17
Threats Terror and Torture of Forced Perpetration

Threats Terror and Torture of Forced Perpetration

The parts of a survivor that split off or dissociate into different parts to cope with the overwhelming internal conflict that results as a protective mechanism to having to perpetrate harm to other victims are actually heroes in a person's system. Well, you may think how can they be a hero if they did such harm to other people? They protected the survivor’s heart during the most horrific and unconceivable acts against others because there was no choice for either of them. I want you to hear that again. If you are a survivor I want to talk directly to you. Those parts of you that harmed other victims protected you from having to experience what you were not capable of doing because you have a heart of love and compassion. You might say, but you don’t know what I’ve done. I’m just as evil as my perpetrators. No. That is what they wanted you to believe. But, I’m here to say that I know that if you had actually been given a choice which you weren’t, you would not have decided to harm anyone. Listen as Sharri talks about the abuse of power and control that abuser groups have over survivors that leads to forced perpetration and how survivors can take a different look at themselves than one of self-condemnation and self-hatred.

Oct 17, 202331:07
Taking Back the Night: Reclaiming Sleep With Sleep Expert Cathy Collyer

Taking Back the Night: Reclaiming Sleep With Sleep Expert Cathy Collyer

Survivors of abuse often struggle with a myriad of sleep-related challenges stemming from the profound psychological and emotional toll of their traumatic past. In this informative podcast episode, Sharri engages in a thoughtful conversation with Cathy Collyer an esteemed author of "Staying in the Room" for those with DID but this time asking for her expertise as a distinguished sleep expert and coach. Cathy delves into the intricate landscape of sleep issues exploring the realm of nightmares and the paralyzing grip of sleep paralysis that can torment survivors, valuable insights into the impact of medication on sleep patterns, shedding light on a crucial aspect of recovery. The episode delves into the distressing reality of sleep deprivation being wielded as a tool in the context of RA/MC (Ritual Abuse/Mind Control). As you immerse yourself in this conversation, you'll discover a treasure trove of practical sleep strategies and solutions as Cathy generously shares her extensive knowledge of accessible resources that can empower anyone to achieve improved sleep quality. Moreover, the podcast touches upon the significance of lighting choices in the context of waking up refreshed and revitalized. Be sure to listen all the way to the end, where Sharri delivers a heartfelt message directly to survivors, offering hope, understanding, and support in their journey towards healing and reclaiming their lives.


Survivors of abuse often experience a variety of sleep issues as a result of the psychological and emotional impact of their traumatic experiences. Sharri talks again in another podcast with Cathy Collyer author of Staying in the Room this time as the sleep expert and coach that she is about some of the issues and challenges that survivors have regarding sleep. Some of the topics discussed are nightmares, sleep paralysis, medication and how it effects sleep, and how sleep deprivation is used with RA/MC. Listen for some very real sleep strategies and sleep solutions. Cathy mentions some very effective resources that she uses that are available to anyone to get better sleep and lighting to use for waking up. Listen to the end for a very touching message from Sharri to survivors.


Sep 21, 202301:36:20
Ongoing Contact of Perpetrator Groups and Demyth-ing their Power

Ongoing Contact of Perpetrator Groups and Demyth-ing their Power

In this podcast, survivor Sharri Burggraaf explores a deeply sensitive and highly triggering topic; specifically addressing survivors of ritual abuse and mind control. (If you are a survivor, I want to emphasize the importance of having a support person available while listening, and please remember to practice self-care throughout this episode). 

Sharri discusses some of her journey and what she has learned about the lies that she was told as she recovered her traumatic memories which included learning the truth about the actual power these groups actually have and how the perception of a child that was terrorized, can cause an adult survivor to then still live by in fear. Although these groups can be dangerous and follow through on their threats to keep from being exposed, they are not as all powerful, all knowing as they claim to be.

She delves into the crucial topic of possible ongoing contact with perpetrators and cultic groups and discusses the power they wield over survivors. When a survivor begins recovery and starts to deal with the trauma through therapy, it is highly likely that an insider part could then contact a designated person in the abusing group who will then call out a reporter part to disclose all of what the survivor is doing. Threats and harassments can start to happen in the form of phone calls, emails, letters or cards in an attempt to trigger parts into doing their jobs like to return to the group or obey their rules of silence and loyalty. Join Sharri as she talks about the truth that can be so empowering that she now knows that she shares with other survivors, their supporters and therapists that work with them.


Aug 08, 202347:05
The Power of Shame: A Silencing Force

The Power of Shame: A Silencing Force

All survivors of abuse carry shame, however today I wanted to focus on how sexual abuse in particular generates a heightened sense of shame. Sexual abuse inflicts deep emotional, psychological, and physical wounds on its victims and is a profound violation of a person's physical, sexual, emotional and psychological boundaries. It is particularly devastating because it violates their rights, undermines their autonomy, shatters their innocence and is a deep violation of trust and their security. The intimate nature of sexual abuse can cause survivors to feel deeply violated, powerless, and vulnerable. The intrusion into one's intimate and private space can create a deep sense of shame and humiliation, as the survivor's autonomy and control over their body have been forcibly taken away. Sexual abuse targets one of the most personal and private aspects of a person's life- their sexuality; exploiting vulnerablity and involving acts that are typically kept private and for consenting adults. The intrusive and demeaning nature of abuse can evoke a profound sense of humiliation. Join Sharri on Arise and Shine After Abuse Podcast as she talks openly about the power of shame that can keep survivors in a holding pattern and not talk about what happened to them and how she broke free of the grip that shame had on her. You can break the chains of shame too!

Jul 13, 202330:24
Guest Cathy Collyer Author of Staying in the Room: Managing Medical and Dental Care When You Have DID

Guest Cathy Collyer Author of Staying in the Room: Managing Medical and Dental Care When You Have DID

Tune in to an engaging conversation with special guest Cathy Collyer, author of the insightful book, "Staying in the Room: Managing Medical and Dental Care when You Have DID." Join Sharri and Cathy as they explore the unique challenges faced by individuals with dissociative identity disorder (DID) in accessing adequate healthcare. Cathy, a survivor with DID herself, shares the strategies and tools she has personally used, while Sharri discusses her own implementation of these techniques. Discover the profound impact of utilizing effective strategies and tools in healthcare, as Cathy emphasizes the wastefulness of poor approaches that consume time, money, and energy. Prepare for an open discussion on sensitive topics such as pelvic and prostate exams, as they explore how survivors can enhance their health and become more effective self-advocates through powerful strategies. What makes this conversation particularly compelling is Cathy's dual perspective as both a healthcare professional familiar with the system's inner workings and a survivor navigating her own path to receiving quality health and dental care.

Don't miss this captivating episode that offers invaluable insights for individuals with DID, therapists, healthcare professionals, and anyone seeking to understand the unique challenges and empowering strategies related to managing medical and dental care in the context of dissociative identity disorder.

You can purchase her book on Amazon.com here:

Staying In The Room: Managing Medical and Dental Care When You Have DID: Collyer, CathyAnn: 9798542019512: Amazon.com: Books

Find us on www.ariseandshineafterabuse.com


Jun 26, 202301:17:33
Guilt, Shame, and Regret; The Triplets After Trauma

Guilt, Shame, and Regret; The Triplets After Trauma

In this podcast, we explore the profound journey of overcoming guilt, shame, and regret in the recovery process from abuse. These emotions can tightly bind survivors, suffocating their lives and keeping them anchored to the past. It takes immense strength, self-compassion, and the willingness to confront painful emotions head-on. It's important to recognize that these feelings are common responses to trauma and not reflections of personal worth or responsibility. Guilt, shame, and regret are normal emotions that guide us toward what is right under normal circumstances. However, survivors often experience distorted guilt, wrongly blaming themselves for the abuse they endured. Shame can be a powerful jailer, making survivors feel inherently bad rather than recognizing that the abuse was wrong. Regret often arises from questioning past decisions, wondering if something could have been done differently. It's vital to remember that survivors are not responsible for the actions of their abusers. Sharri talks about her journey that includes the hope that she has found through a relationship with Jesus that have helped her replace the lies that she believed as a result of her abuse with the truth. Each individual is unique in their journey. Never preachy, we offer what has worked for us. Through therapy, support networks, and self-reflection survivors can challenge these misplaced emotions and embrace their own innocence and worthiness. This transformative journey allows survivors to reclaim their power, rebuild their lives, and find peace, self-acceptance, and empowerment.

May 19, 202324:03
Recovery From Trauma Related Dissociation

Recovery From Trauma Related Dissociation

How do you recover from Trauma Related Dissociation when the whole point of dissociation is to "not know" what trauma and abuse you endure? Join Sharri as she chats about the steps you can take that will support your recovery or that of your client.

Recovering from trauma related dissocation after experiencing abuse is a process that requires patience, self care and self compassion. It is a journey that requires intentional effort and a willingness to prioritize your own needs.  Sharri talks about seeking professional help, creating safety and stability, building a support network, identifying triggers, practicing self-care, exploring trauma-specific treatment options, checking out trauma resources, and setting boundaries, so that individuals can work towards healing and regaining control over their lives. It may not be an easy road, but it is possible to reclaim a sense of safety, security, and resilience. 


May 08, 202318:16
Attachment and Authenticity Two Needs for Survival

Attachment and Authenticity Two Needs for Survival

You know the saying to listen to your gut instinct? As survivors with dissociative disorders we had to disconnect from our gut instinct, our body and emotions to survive the childhood trauma.A child’s drive for attachment is the need to be close to someone to be taken care of. An infant is born in touch with their bodies and emotions and cry for survival and live authentically. Listen as Sharri, survivor of extreme trauma talks about what happens when a child goes through abuse, neglect or is abandoned and the two most painful things that are carried into adulthood and the illustration of 3 year old Jimmy who loses his sense of self and the connection to his emotions because he can’t lose attachment or relationship with his mother. What is the solution for the parents who have had trauma that gets triggered by their children who get angry or are going through acting out behaviors? Tune in to hear the answer to that question and the two most common underlying emotions that get activated for survivors by present day events. Reconnecting with our feelings can be an overwhelming prospect but hear some ways that work. With compassionate curiosity towards yourself, you too can connect and learn that you already are good enough and be gentle with yourself for being this way in the first place instead of having self judgment or self criticism. It is not a fault or failure that your marvelous brain did what God intended for your mind to do to survive back then. Hear how to start being your authentic self and choose the people you want to be with and those you don’t. 

Apr 17, 202325:55
Response to MCLean Hospital's Video by Matthew Robinson on Social Media and the Rise of Self Diagnosis of DID

Response to MCLean Hospital's Video by Matthew Robinson on Social Media and the Rise of Self Diagnosis of DID

My heart goes out to the community of people who have Dissociative Identities in the wake of the Youtube public video titled “Social Media and the Rise of Self-Diagnosed Dissociative Identity Disorder” by Matthew Robinson and McClean Hospital. A hospital that is supposed to be a place where people can go for treatment of DID has put out this very damaging message and done much harm to restigmatize anyone who has the condition. H says that he can’t verify or deny who does or does not have DID and he says he doesn’t claim to know anything about the individuals other than what they’ve said on their channel, he then goes on to use their videos as possible examples of people self-diagnosing, fake claiming or malingering which is using their intentional symptoms of being in the sick role for positive gain since one of them had merch for sale.  While the recent removal of the video shows a positive first step towards accountability, I think that further action on their part is needed to be accountable and to make a public apology to the DID community and to those individuals that he targeted and used their social media clips without their permission I might add.  While Robinson’s intention may not have been to harm anyone he has hurt the DID community. Listen as Sharri talks about what he said and her response and empathy for the community of people that she loves.

Apr 01, 202314:35
Navigating Relationships With DID

Navigating Relationships With DID

Are you a survivor with Dissociative Identities wanting to connect with others in a relationship but struggle with intimacy and trust issues? You're not alone. Any relationship takes time to build and requires being vulnerable and honest. Relationships get more complicated however when there has been abuse. Survivors of abuse can attest to the fact that they need to have safety, space, and understanding as parts of them front and especially during times of triggers or flashbacks. Join survivor Sharri and her husband Frank her biggest support as they discuss some of the struggles that they have encountered in their own 34 year relationship. Communication, commitment, connection, setting boundaries, focusing on ourselves and our part in the relationship, not becoming offensive or taking it personally if the survivor gets triggered, de-escalating, helping a survivor emotionally regulate, giving space, asking how can I help you to feel safe and other things that work. PTSD trigger is like a 911 emergency that goes off in the brain and how the fight, flight, freeze response takes at least 20 - 30 minutes to come back down from needing the space to have that. touch, frustration, failure, fix and trying to keep from triggering the survivor is impossible although you can learn their triggers.

Support people need to set aside their needs during times of crisis and stress to allow the survivor to have healing, avoiding you statements and making it about you, focusing on your own reactions, not making things into a heated debate, getting your own therapy or support, and knowing that you are not a failure when the survivor is triggered by something you say or do. Hear them, allow them space, be able to set necessary boundaries and to have their own choices. Relationship issues can be a mirror reflecting back to us what we need to change or how we need to grow. Sharri and Frank talk about using prayer and allowing God to work out resolutions. Being in a relationship is a call to love unconditionally, forgive, accept and love yourself first. Gain experiential knowledge from their 34 years together and what they have done to do the hard work it takes to support and love each other facing and dealing with their own emotions and baggage and being friends first and committed to each other in marriage.

Mar 26, 202352:57
DID Portrayed in Hollywood Versus Reality

DID Portrayed in Hollywood Versus Reality

Judie and Sharri both survivors with Dissociative Identities talk about movies on DID like Split, Sybil, Identity, Frankie and Alice that make DID look like those who have it are dangerous psychotic individuals. They share their views as survivors with DID how it really is compared to the sensationalized killer thriller films that are out there that depict us as psychopaths. We chat about several good Youtube films that more accurately describe the condition like a film from My Healthy Mind, 15 Personalities in One Woman, and a dark depiction set in an institution with a padded room. The chaos and conflict between the personalities that are shown don't show the organized system that someone with trauma as a child creates and continues to function, without noticing, not as drastic as Split or Identity. Hollywood portrays DID as a sci-fi monstrous thing, making those of us with it look violent and unsafe to be around. Our perpetrators resemble them but victims and survivors don't. These are films that are thrillers with killers. Survivors of extreme trauma are very loving caring people with compassion and empathy. They know what hurt is like and don't want others to be hurt. They have amazing abilities and creativity. Why is DID being picked on? Hollywood is a huge pedophile ring with an evil agenda, a huge place for ritual abuse and sex trafficking. If they make us look like lunatics or conspiracy theoryists, then if we talk about our abuse or our abusers, victims won't be believed and they won't be exposed. People don't want to believe that evil is as evil as it is. Sex trafficking alone is a $32 billion dollar industry. Survivors who have dissociated their abuse from their conscious memory don't really want to face the graphic, painful horrific things that have been done to them, but to recover and become more whole they have to. Why would survivors want to make these stories up? Survivors resist remembering but are willingly going to therapy to become more whole. No one makes up this stuff. The world is filled with ostriches that sticks their head in the sand or moles who are blind. They don't want to believe that these things happen and are still happening to our children because they've been decieved. Survivors are bravely going into the pain and acknowledging that these things happened to them. Conspiracy theories were created to silence people that are connected to secret, hidden things like sex trafficking which is the foundation of everything in our world; the economic systems and all of civilization as it is today. You take away the money that this industry brings, you have a collapse. Bravely sharing the truth about how people get caught in Hollywood's secret society and trapped in trafficking rings and how the United States is the number one consumer of child sex trafficking in the world but they do everything they can to cover it all up. Churches, pastors, religious leaders, political groups, world leaders have been infiltrated with people who are pedophiles and masons being used by the evil darkness behind it all. Perpetrators present to us that they have a lot of power, but they really have no power except for deception which deceives. We are shining the light and sharing the truth. The truth sets us free from the power of their deception. Judie is a writer and researcher with studies in ancient and modern religions, Biblical studies, ancient history, DID, and is a survivor of child ritual abuse, mind control, and child sex trafficking. Sharri is a wife, mother, Nana, writer, artist, speaker, founder of a non-profit organization “S.H.O.U.T. for Help, Inc” and conference planner, and is a survivor of ritual abuse, mind control and child porn and sex trafficking.  Find information, resources, a blog, an archive of this podcast and a forum for survivors of RA/MC. Be sure to visit www.ariseandshineafterabuse.com

Mar 19, 202341:56
Dissociative Identity Disorder Awareness Day March 5

Dissociative Identity Disorder Awareness Day March 5

March 5 is Dissociative Identity Disorder Awareness day. Formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder, DID is often misdiagnosed and misunderstood by both mental health professionals and the public. Predominantly caused by severe repeated childhood trauma dissociation is a marvelously brilliant survival mechanism that our minds are capable of to protect a child when no one else did. When long term child abuse occurs before the age of 7 - 9 when a child is developing, it prevents the child from fully integrating into a single self state. Because the child did not get comfort or soothing, the different identities hold specific memories so that the child can function without being aware of other identities. This mechanism of coping becomes what a child does to survive and be able to function with the abuse and it follows them into adulthood. Those with the condition struggle with life altering symptoms like depersonalization, derealization, detachment from emotions, addictions, self harm, eating disorders, suicidal tendencies, as well as PTSD, anxiety and depression. DID Awareness Day was first observed in 2012 organized by Ivory Garden, a non profit organization to raise awareness and provide support to survivors of trauma and abuse and is now recognized by advocacy groups, mental health organizations, and individuals throughout the world.  Observance of this day is to increase awareness, educate and teach about DID to promote a greater understanding and to honor those who have the response AND acknowledge the challenges that each of them face. I talk today about some of the myths and facts about DID, and share that the hardest thing for me in accepting a diagnosis of DID was coming to terms with the reason for having it; the trauma that I had blocked out. It actually made sense of something I experienced but now there was a name for it. As a survivor with DID, I want to raise awareness, but also do what I can to reduce the significant stigma and discrimination surrounding the condition, making sure that those who have DID receive the care, support and resources they deserve. I want to make a difference in the quality of lives of survivors, to offer hope and encouragement, so that symptoms can be better managed, to teach the skills I have learned for coping, to be able to go on to learning how to thrive with DID instead of just survive. Those parts of us who hold what happened to us are courageous and brave and are our heroes. If it were not for them we would not have survived the abuse we went through.  People with DID are warriors and heroes courageously braving their way to recover from the trauma and abuse they have been subjected to and who are making the world a better place by treating their inside and outside people with the kindness and love that they were not given. By facing their truths, sharing their stories and fighting for their freedom, they are willing to look at the injustices that were done to them and to others like them They are strong, determined people who are speaking out, and paving the way for others by making their homes, their children and their corner of the world a safer place. By defying abuser groups, sharing their stories, finding their voices by speaking out, raising awareness, and teaching others the truth and facts about abuse, dissociative identity disorder can become more accepted, more understood, and those with DID can learn to embrace their humanity and themselves, knowing that they are not really that different than anyone else and go on to live as wholeheartedly as possible. More resources on www.ariseandshineafterabuse.com Stay tuned to Arise and Shine Podcast with Sharri 

Mar 07, 202312:02
What is Dissociative Identity Response?

What is Dissociative Identity Response?

Dissociative identity is a response caused by extreme, repetitive, physical, sexual, or emotional abuse in the early developmental years that enables a child to survive and continue to function. Previously called multiple personality disorder, DID is characterized by at least two or more distinct personality or identity states (referred to as alters) that take ownership of the host personality’s feelings, thoughts and behaviors. God created our brains with this remarkable coping mechanism to survive horrendous forms of trauma that is too painful for a child to deal with. As part of the fight or flight response dissociation kicks in to protect us from danger. During traumatic events when fighting or fleeing is not a viable option the freeze response is activated, and the person experiences a disconnect from the body providing a psychological exit from the horror of the abuse. It's like if a child is being abused in his/her bedroom and they focus on the ceiling to dissociate the trauma there is a disconnect from their sense of self from who they are and from the trauma and abuse that is occurring. Dissociation protects the child from fully experiencing the repeated trauma and enables them to have dim or no recollection of what happened or how they felt. The survival mechanism of the brain is able to numb the emotional and physical pain the child would have felt. The overwhelming anger and shame the child internalizes is not able to be processed consciously at the time either.  A child who shows signs or symptoms of abuse may not be able to recall the traumatic incidents but also may not be able to have complete memory of everyday events, of personal information and can cause a significant impact on school, relationships and all aspects of daily functioning. The likelihood of being misdiagnosed with bipolar, borderline personality,  or other disorder or being treated for anxiety, depression, mood disorders, substance abuse, self harm and eating disorders is high before finally being diagnosed with DID because those with dissociative identity can show signs of all these. Research shows that people with a dissociative disorder spend an average of seven years in the mental health system before receiving a correct diagnosis. In instances of ritual and other organized groups a child’s ability to dissociate is manipulated. Dissociative identity may be purposefully achieved through trauma based mind control to split the person into identities where the child is subjected to systematic, sophisticated torture with drugging, hypnosis, and conditioning to implant thoughts, commands, and for the purpose of creating specific identities that will be used for child pornography, child sex trafficking, the military, occult practices, spying, assassination and other acts in violation of a person’s moral and spiritual convictions all without the person’s conscious awareness. These parts are walled off from the host personality deep in the person’s psyche. In both instances where DID is caused by either family or a criminal group, dissociating is a helpful coping strategy during the time to block out the trauma, but it can cause problems in functioning in a person’s daily life. I talk about depersonalization and derealization both of which are a part of DID and the treatment of dissociative identity with the goal of healing, recovery with integration or at least more wholeness to be able to live more wholeheartedly with the goal of going from victim, to survivor to learning how to thrive with DID.

Mar 04, 202316:14
DID Dissociative Identity Disorder: Petals of a Rose Review and Discussion

DID Dissociative Identity Disorder: Petals of a Rose Review and Discussion

Sharri, a survivor with DID focuses on dissociative identity disorder and her recommendation of a film that she recently watched. She says, I was a speaker at An Infinite Mind 2023 Conference and I attended the session on Sunday February 19 with Holly and her son Dylan Crumpler. They showed a film that they co-wrote together which Dylan created for his college thesis titled “Petals of a Rose”. I was able to view the uncut version ahead of time and they showed a much more survivor friendly version at the conference. There are 2 versions available on Dylan’s website. Anyway, they had a Q&A where they answered questions after the film was shown. First of all let me tell you a little more about the film. It is the most accurate depiction of DID that I have ever seen in a film. Very well done, while Hollywood has done this behavioral response a disservice and has sensationalized it and made it out to be like a horrible psychotic dangerous thing to have or for people to be around. I believe DID is an amazingI God-given gift of survival or coping mechanism for a child to be able to withstand horrific intolerable abuse and have the memories and feelings and awareness split off from the core person into a part or identity so that the original person can still function and later when the person feels safe after the abuse has stopped, they can face the truth by associating the memory and connect with the parts who know what happened so that the person can recover from the trauma, have healing and become more whole.  So, Holly, Dylan’s mother has Dissociative Identity Disorder. She was sexually abused as a child and was not diagnosed until Dylan was 19 or 20 (somewhere in there). At age 22 Dylan started creating this film because he wanted to realistically depict a day in the life of a woman with DID since this response has often been inaccurately and negatively portrayed in film and television. I think of Sybil as one of those movies where it is more disturbing and sensationalized than it is accurately showing the amazing positive aspects of DID. I highly recommend the film to anyone who has DID, for those who work with clients who have DID, for those who want to learn more about DID, and for anyone who supports a survivor with this response. There are several things that are so touching to me about this collaboration between Holly and Dylan and the film itself. One is the fact that Dylan is so supportive of his mother and how this whole process for him helped him to work through the issues that he has had to deal with as living with someone who has DID; that has a trauma all it’s own and hearing at the conference that Dylan got therapy too for what he has gone through helps show that there are effects for those who live with or have a relationship with someone who has unhealed traumatization. I think of my children having had to live with someone who had different identities and not really know what was going on with their mom for so many years. Another thing that was very touching for me about the film was the response there was from the boyfriend Jeremy who is finding out for the first time that Rose who played a version of Holly after she has effects of being triggered during some intimate time together in her bedroom.
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https://www.dylancrumpler.com
To go directly to the film on the website:
https://www.dylancrumpler.com/watch-petals-of-a-rose

Feb 25, 202309:50
Arise and Shine Pioneers Braving and Paving the Way for Survivors of RA/MC and Trafficking

Arise and Shine Pioneers Braving and Paving the Way for Survivors of RA/MC and Trafficking

Welcome to Arise and Shine Podcast: Pioneers Braving and Paving the Way for Survivors of RA/MC and Trafficking. Join Sharri Burggraaf, wife, mother, Nana, Survivor of RA/MC which included childhood sex trafficking where she shares how she is learning to thrive with dissociative identity response and get on the other side of the darkness she was born into. Debunking the myths of DID, the purpose of this podcast is to raise awareness of RA/MC and the link there is between ritual abuse and sex trafficking having multi-generational familial origins. The goal is to offer support, the love of Jesus, and hope to survivors AND those still caught in or trying to escape from these organized criminal cultic groups or who need rescued out of trafficking. Giving experiential learning and encouragement to survivors who are living with dissociative identity and other behavioral responses caused by childhood sexual abuse as well as trauma based mind control, to bring healing to those in recovery in a non-traditional non-religious Christian way because Jesus is about relationships and since those who have had this type of trauma have had such spiritual damage and many have been horrifically hurt by church and the Christian community. If you want to learn more tune into upcoming podcasts. Be sure to visit the website at www.ariseandshineafterabuse.com where you can find more information, resources, my blog and a forum for survivors of RA/MC.
Catch you next time on Arise and Shine Podcast where you'll find Pioneers Braving and Paving the Way for Survivors of RA/MC and Trafficking. 

Feb 25, 202302:20